Sorry for the delay!
Man…have I been busy. I guess that is a good thing but I am about to need a break! At least two are coming my way. Tomorrow is the last day of school for a week. I love Thanksgiving break. I really love that Irving sees to it that we keep that week long break. It is desperately needed by all. By Sat. at noon my graduate class is done with! That is a big AMEN! I was able to get all my papers and projects turned in last night. Tonight my project partner and I met for a couple of hours and hammered out the 45 minute presentation that we must do. Tomorrow night and Sat. morning are the last two class meeting times. Do you feel the exhaustion running off the page yet? I plan on sleeping straight from Sat. night through Monday, maybe Tues. I see that the blog is getting lots of hits everyday but I sort of feel like Brad did. When none of you make comments it is hard to get motivated to write. I have had a few other thousands of words I have been writing but I can see the light at end of the tunnel.
My kids at school have been great. They wanted me to tell them what happened and so I started to. Then pretty quick into it one of the kids said, “I know exactly how you feel. One time we had a cat that died.” That’s when I had to stop the conversation. It was funny really. I wanted to scream ”A cat and a husband are two totally different things ” but I didn’t. I just got us all back to work and told them I would have to continue later. Tonight we had a family night at school. One of my former students who is now in middle school came to find me, hugged me and then preceeded to tell me that he had put me on the prayer list at his church for me to find someone quickly and to be safe. I thought that was so sweet. Not sure about finding someone quickly. I teased with Brad all the time about he couldn’t leave me until I was hot. Meaning skinny! Well…he certainly didn’t hold up his end of the deal! Anyway, I asked the kid to put in this Sunday that I needed to figure out how to pay the bills.
Speaking of bills, the death certificates have taken what seems like forever to get here. I don’t want to sound crass but hurry up…this is holding up my entire process of finding the funds that have been left to live with! I can’t believe that you can find out you have cancer in 4 hours, get a late payment notice in 3 days, but it takes forever for them to type in a form that says you kicked the bucket! Surely there is an online form to fill out! I think if I was trying to get someone else’s identity I could have done it faster than this. Really!
Enough for now. Tomorrow is two weeks since the worst day of my life. I can’t believe it happened and many times I find myself thinking that I just left him in Houston to get well and I am supposed to go pick him up any day. Then reality hits and I do remember that my life has changed. I will be ok. I already know that now. But I do miss him terribly.