Rough Night
First I have to apologize. Last night’s post sounded way too cheery for the real situation that we find ourselves in today. Brad’s mental state has declined severly. I know…you are probably chuckling because that is what I would think too. But it isn’t funny. It is very scary to me and to Katie. This is the worst we have seen Brad ever. Maybe he has been like this immediately after a surgery when he was still loopy, but this loopy isn’t wearing off. His personality has changed too. He is very angry and is speaking to Katie and I in a manner that he has NEVER used. Tonight he thought Katie was a nurse for almost 2 hours. Now…to go back to my normal writing…. IF we were sitting around a big roaring campfire next to a rushing stream of water with all of our friends and had a ton of liquor-(yes, we are Baptist and don’t usually drink-but go with me on this story)and Brad was telling these same stories he has been telling all of us there tonight, then we would be rolling off the logs and camp chairs and even peeing a little in our pants we were laughing so hard. BUT….no liquor has been consumed. Drs. know, nurses know. They did an MRI at 9:30 tonight and we will hear about that tomorrow. They also took away some meds to see if that helps.
Here is where I need help. I am going back in to the Gifted and Talented classroom next year. I have seemed to avoid taking the four grad classes-yes ON TOP of my Masters-to get the certificate. Well…..not anymore. They caught on to my plan!!!! Anyway. I signed up for my first class since it was a great set up and I only had to be “in” class 5 times in one month and then do online work to get the first 3 hours marked off the list. Today was the first of the classes. So after the last Friday of the school year-no not last day-that is next Thursday,I left school immediately to drive and sit until 9 in my first class session. I also have to go Saturday morning from 8-12:30, so I won’t be able to be with Brad in the morning. Yes. I am writing this at 12:37 because Katie and I just left the hospital. I feel guilty because I am putting this class before being with Brad but we’ve already paid the $800 for this class and I can’t drop it now without it being an F! I have a 4.0 on my Masters and I am not failing now!
So for the prayer warriors among the readers and even for those who do something other than pray. We need help now. Brad is always so strong and positive. Please pray that this Brad comes back to us and this loopy version is just from something funky in the meds. We are not ready to lose this fight and not in this way. Please pray that if this is the end presented to us in some weird way that Katie and I are strong enough to handle it. We aren’t ready.
Thank you so much for being great friends. Help us through this time by praying and sending good thoughts. Tami
I’m a lapsed Baptist, but you have me praying.
Comment by susan c | May 29, 2009
Brad, Tami and Katie,
Know that you three our in our thoughts and prayers. Please let us know if there is anything we can do for you. We love you guys!!
Comment by Jennifer and Kirk Waller | May 30, 2009
Just let me know. We can do anything you want or need.
Comment by Ken and Kristi | May 30, 2009
Tami and Katie,
I just wanted you to know that Mark and I are praying! We love you guys soooo much and hate to see you going through all this. We’re praying that you will soon see the normal Brad very soon! Tami, praying for your class, too. Call us anytime!
Comment by Neva Carlson | May 30, 2009
You are all such strong people and with each new obstacle you’ve proven it over and over again. Know that we all with you in prayer and hope this is a momentary set back. Fevers and meds can make us do crazy things. Always praying…
Comment by Angelica | May 30, 2009
Just hang in there guys–know that is easier for me to say than can be done at times. The prayers are always flowing and would do anything you guys might need. Your plate is definitely full, but your family and friends are here to help. Take care and always praying. T
Comment by Teresa | May 30, 2009
Your MCL buddy in Raleigh is praying for you!!! Kick some A.
Comment by adam schneider | May 30, 2009
Hi guys!
Found your feed through Facebook and want to wish you all the very best. Remember something, Bill had the booster cells and he was free of cancer a few months later. This was after a very poor result with the initial SCT.
Life has changed but it has been enriched by my grandchildren living with me since Bill’s passing. They will leave soon for their own home and I will adjust again. Life is full of opportunities, we need only to be open to them.
Love ya!
Comment by Norma Law | May 30, 2009
Tammy, Tom & I are praying for you too! Hang in there! We love you guys!
Love, DeeAnn
Comment by DeeAnn Lemmons | May 30, 2009
Tami & Katie & Brad:
I pray for you daily. I pray that you find the strength and the humor to continue looking forward to each day. I beleive that the fever and the length of time on high powered medication has taken a great toll on Brad. I believe he will bounce back to the loving person he normally is. This has not been “Brad”. Tami I encourage you to continue with your studies. This is for you and your family. Much love to you all.
Comment by Dixie King | June 1, 2009