This is the Great Adventure

Silence does not equal sadness

I feel so badly when I look at the counter and see that faithfully there are different computers logging into the blog to see the updates. I cannot seem to find the time to let you know how life goes here in the Williams house! We have made it through all of the first major important dates that some people struggle with during the first year of their loved one’s passing. Typical Brad fashion says “Get it over with and done.” “Don’t waste time on being sad.” “Move on.” If you didn’t know him, he was pretty much just like that. Just get over it. So Katie and I had a few small moments but mostly have great memories to carry us through. We have had the chance to have lots of good talks and feel really ok with the way things had to happen. Part of this relief came from the dentist who pulled all four of Katie’s wisdom teeth out just hours before her father died. She had the benefit of major drugs to get her through the worst days. In hindsight, that was a blessing. She went back to the dentist the other day. Mentioned about her dad when he asked how recovery went. While she explained what happened, he, using his medical knowledge of what the events were that led to Brad’s death told her that bleeding out and freezing to death were the two most pleasant ways to die without trauma. He told her that Brad’s brain was lacking oxygen for probably many hours and he basically just felt weak and tired. Then just went after the coughing episode when they knew something was really wrong. That made both of us feel better. Even if it wasn’t the way it went, it still made us feel a little relieved to know.

Silence doesn’t equal sadness but it does equal being crazy busy. Snow has been the craziest part of this holiday break. We don’t EVER have snow. Now it seems like we have it once a week! So much for global warming. Our house redos are coming along very nicely. Katie and I went to IKEA to purchase the new cabinets for the kitchen. We are right on track with our timing. Last spring when Brad was “recovering” I took him to IKEA in Houstson just because it was a place we could walk around. We both found a kitchen set up that we loved. He said by Christmas we should have this kitchen in our house. Well…we are just a few weeks behind his schedule but feel like we are doing something that he totally approves of. It is nice to know that he saw it and had a say in it because it makes it feel like I am doing something with him instead of without him.

Car issues- Junky truck inspected. Lights fixed in about 3 minutes. WOW…when guys know what they are doing it sure is a nice thing! Not that Brad wouldn’t have known…but it would have been a long day of figuring it out, a big mess, the dashboard ripped off and in the yard, etc. He wasn’t the neatest of workers!!! One car sold!!! Another car going to be gone by this weekend. Now we are just down to three, oh…and that danged motorcycle is still here!!

I will be ready for school to start on Monday so I can get some rest. Lots of my to do list is done. There isn’t a graduate class for me to take this spring…yeah! So I might actually have a chance to use my new Air Climber and get myself into shape. It kicked my butt…well actually my thighs last night. Obviously I am going to have to “work up” to a full workout. I couldn’t even go 2 minutes at a time. Man…I am out of shape. Now it is time to take care of me.

December 30th, 2009 at 08:48am Posted by Brad | General | 7 comments